Lifes...

Huh..It been too long never come back here. Too much of things that want to write out here but dunno which one should start first. Relationship with friends. Now I start to feel really lonely, although got friends but all my so call best friend dun even remember my birthday and no one is celebrating with me. This really make me feel very up sad. I wish more people can care about me.No even one people planning to make some surprise for me. When i need them there are no one is there for me. Sad~~ My mum had pass away last July'2012. Still will miss her sometimes. Miss the food that she use to cook for me. She knows what is my favor food. Now she become more happy because she no need to suffer from all the sickness and stay eternal life. Although you are not my real mum but in my mind you is my real mum. Now my working place is really near to my house, is just a 5min drive, but the salary is too little for me. I hope I can find a higher salary job for me to take care of my family expenses. Sometimes really feel stress on everything that happen to me. In 2 years time all the things keep happen on my side. Both parents also get cancer. One had pass away another one still dun wan to listen to what i said. GOD please help me out on all this situation. I really feel hard to breathe sometimes. I just hope my dad can be more understanding. Is not i dun allow him to do what he want but in this situation now really hard. I wish my other half will put more time on me. Is not that i want him to stay by my side 24/7, is just i wan his appearance everyday to let me know that there is someone for me if i am sad or feel hard. I dun like to feel alone or lonely. I hate that kind of feeling. But what to do, when i say this to my other half he will have alot of point to say that i need to learn how to stay alone. Why cant he become a person that be more understanding on my situation? I just hate it hate it hate it so much. Sometimes I really feel that in this world no one really understand me not even myself. Feel funny huh~ Now I really jealous when I saw my another half he got alot of friends, but me is alone. Sad case.