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For so long never come up here d...Alot of thing happen in my life..I finally graduated from college and now start working in one company as sales coordinator. People in the company quite friendly. Now talk about my family. My mom got brain cancer and is in the final stage. At 1st i really cannot believe all this happen in my family but still it's really happen. Now she not in a good condition, feel so worry about her but also feel so sad that i can't stay by her side to take care about her. She in Singapore to do all the treatment, but I in Malaysia.

Now my family really get into financial problem. My dad keep complaining that he dun have money, so do I. I just start my work last Monday so i not even got money for myself. Sometimes at home i really feel that i wan to move out from this house. This house left a lot of bad memory in my mind. I dun wan to think it back.I really need to stay strong and take care of my family.

Lastly is about my relationship thingy... My lovely dear now stay in KL because of studies, so i need to wait until he finish all his studies then only got time for both of us. Who knows when he just move to KL, on the second day got one friends of us who now same room with my dear said this to my dear:"go and break with your gf and find a new and good one." What kind of friend is this? How come he can say something like that to his own friends? This really make me sad and angry.I really dunno why he wan to do that? Izit jealous because my dear got a good relationship?

I know that i am not a prefect person, but i edy try my best to be a good gf. In this world nothing is prefect. I know i got hot temper sometimes, but that is my natural behaviour. I know i need to control my temper but still you can't call other people to break their relationship. Why you always wan me and my dear break up like that?? I feel really sad about this. I really scare this will affect my relationship, sumore now me and my dear is having a long distance relationship...I really dunno what is the point that you keep doing this lo...