Lifes...

Huh..It been too long never come back here. Too much of things that want to write out here but dunno which one should start first. Relationship with friends. Now I start to feel really lonely, although got friends but all my so call best friend dun even remember my birthday and no one is celebrating with me. This really make me feel very up sad. I wish more people can care about me.No even one people planning to make some surprise for me. When i need them there are no one is there for me. Sad~~ My mum had pass away last July'2012. Still will miss her sometimes. Miss the food that she use to cook for me. She knows what is my favor food. Now she become more happy because she no need to suffer from all the sickness and stay eternal life. Although you are not my real mum but in my mind you is my real mum. Now my working place is really near to my house, is just a 5min drive, but the salary is too little for me. I hope I can find a higher salary job for me to take care of my family expenses. Sometimes really feel stress on everything that happen to me. In 2 years time all the things keep happen on my side. Both parents also get cancer. One had pass away another one still dun wan to listen to what i said. GOD please help me out on all this situation. I really feel hard to breathe sometimes. I just hope my dad can be more understanding. Is not i dun allow him to do what he want but in this situation now really hard. I wish my other half will put more time on me. Is not that i want him to stay by my side 24/7, is just i wan his appearance everyday to let me know that there is someone for me if i am sad or feel hard. I dun like to feel alone or lonely. I hate that kind of feeling. But what to do, when i say this to my other half he will have alot of point to say that i need to learn how to stay alone. Why cant he become a person that be more understanding on my situation? I just hate it hate it hate it so much. Sometimes I really feel that in this world no one really understand me not even myself. Feel funny huh~ Now I really jealous when I saw my another half he got alot of friends, but me is alone. Sad case.

feeling

For so long never come up here d...Alot of thing happen in my life..I finally graduated from college and now start working in one company as sales coordinator. People in the company quite friendly. Now talk about my family. My mom got brain cancer and is in the final stage. At 1st i really cannot believe all this happen in my family but still it's really happen. Now she not in a good condition, feel so worry about her but also feel so sad that i can't stay by her side to take care about her. She in Singapore to do all the treatment, but I in Malaysia.

Now my family really get into financial problem. My dad keep complaining that he dun have money, so do I. I just start my work last Monday so i not even got money for myself. Sometimes at home i really feel that i wan to move out from this house. This house left a lot of bad memory in my mind. I dun wan to think it back.I really need to stay strong and take care of my family.

Lastly is about my relationship thingy... My lovely dear now stay in KL because of studies, so i need to wait until he finish all his studies then only got time for both of us. Who knows when he just move to KL, on the second day got one friends of us who now same room with my dear said this to my dear:"go and break with your gf and find a new and good one." What kind of friend is this? How come he can say something like that to his own friends? This really make me sad and angry.I really dunno why he wan to do that? Izit jealous because my dear got a good relationship?

I know that i am not a prefect person, but i edy try my best to be a good gf. In this world nothing is prefect. I know i got hot temper sometimes, but that is my natural behaviour. I know i need to control my temper but still you can't call other people to break their relationship. Why you always wan me and my dear break up like that?? I feel really sad about this. I really scare this will affect my relationship, sumore now me and my dear is having a long distance relationship...I really dunno what is the point that you keep doing this lo...

i think all the girls hope their boyfriends to read this...

1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.

#2 When she misses you, she’s hurting inside.

#3 When she says it’s over, she still wants you to be hers.

#4 When she walks away from you mad, follow her.

#5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.

#6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don’t let her go.

#7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.

#8 When she ignores you, give her your attention.

#9 When she pulls away, pull her back.

#10 When you see her at her worst, tell her she’s beautiful.

#11 When you see her crying, just hold her and don’t say a word.

#12 When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.

#13 When she’s scared, protect her.

#14 When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.

#15 When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.

#16 When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.

#17 When she doesn’t answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.

#18 When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.

#19 When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.

#20 When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.

#21 When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.

#22 When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.

#23 When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.

#24 Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.

#25 Don’t let her have the last word.

#26 Don’t call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.

#27 Say you love her more than she could ever love you.

#28 Argue that she is the best girl ever.

#29 When she’s mad, hug her tight and don’t let go.

#30 When she says she’s OK, don’t believe it, talk to
her about it, because 10 yrs later she’ll still remember it.

#31 Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.

#32 Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.

#33 Treat her like she’s all that matters to you.

#34 Don’t ignore her when she’s out with you and your friends.

#35 Stay up all night with her when she’s sick.

#36 Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

#37 Let her into your world.

#38 Let her wear your clothes.

#39 When she’s bored and sad, hang out with her

#40 Let her know she’s important.

#41 Kiss her in the pouring rain.

#42 When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; “Who’s ass am I kicking today baby?”

#43 After she reads this, she hopes one day you’d read it too.

feel sad and angry...

Today when i reach home my mom come and ask me:" do u take the Singapore money that i say i want keep for u?" then i say i did not touch at all, but you keep complaining that i took the money without you knowing... WTH.. That is my money, you say you want to keep and i already give it to you. Now you lost the money and you put all the blame on me? What kind of parents are you?
Every time i told you i want to keep on my own and you say i will use it, now let you keep and you lost it, then blame yourself! Do not blame others! I rather keep on my own and use on my own. Let you keep already still blame others... This really make me angry! Why always blame me when money is lost? You always take it and dunno where you put, then blame on others. Then next time i lost my money then i blame on you la! Let you feel what is the feeling when being blame by others! angry angry angry!!! My money leh~~~so sad T.T

Ping pong competition

Today, I just finish a ping pong competition in INTI NILAI.
I still wondering why i keep doing the same mistake in the competition.( stress i think )
Actually i got a bit disappointed, because some of the player did not turn up.
When we reach there, the competition already started.
Johnny, Loo and i are the player in this competition. Just 3 of us...How we want to win with just 3 of us? we already doing our best in the competition, so i dun feel any regret.
But i really need more training to become more better.
Sometime i am thinking, how if i graduated?
Our college female are not interesting in ping pong?
I hope college can find more female to play ping pong, because we always lack of female in the competition. It really make me worry..Because we cant always walk through in the competition.
it really not fair for the male player..Next year will be my last year playing ping pong in HICT, i hope i will not be the last female who playing ping pong in HICT.
Really hope that got other female that willing to follow my footstep...Let the ping pong club be active in the college...Although i am not a good player, but i really hope can get other female to join us. Go for a competition to get some experience...Every time i went for a competition i can feel that i improve a lot, when you are in a competition u can see a lot of thing and learn a lot of thing...Hope before i graduate, can get more girls to join us...

男生, 以下是女生要的

1 经常亲吻她，趁她不注意
2 过马路时牵她的手。即使吵架。
3 一定要有属于你们自己的房子，即使不大。
4 一起听她喜欢的歌和她爱看的电影，陪她感动。
5 让她躺在你的腿上，可以抚摸她的头发。
6 她洗澡的时候唱歌给她听，让她不觉得闷。
7 哄她吃她不爱吃但有营养的食物。
8 用情侣牙刷，然后把你的牙刷和她的偷偷换一下。
9 当她很累时给她捏捏肩，捏捏脚，然后挠她脚心逗她开心。
10 偷偷录下她走来走去和睡觉的样子。不管她耍赖还是威胁就是不删。
11 没有理由的抱抱她。
12 她写的东西我一定用心的看，读懂内心的那个她。
13 周末为她做她喜欢吃的东西，然后散步。
14 在大天广众之下背她或停下来拥抱她。
15 在街上走的时候不会离她超过1米远的距离。
16 进餐厅的门或出图书馆的时候一定为她拉门让她先走。
17 陪她买菜杀价，她做饭你做汤。
18 趁她半睡半醒间为她盖被子，醒来先看看熟睡的她，然后亲一下她的额头。
19 在她特殊时期为她端上热的红糖水，然后若无其事的看电视。
20 偶尔早上打电话给她，听她佣懒的声音然后问她想吃什么给她带回去。
21 给她取可爱的外号，只有你能叫。
22 手机和电脑的背景一定是她的照片或你们的合影。
23 手机上的昵称一定是和别人不一样的，当你打给她时，她的姐妹看到会很羡慕。
24 在家帮她梳个幼稚的发型，然后叫她女儿。
25 如果出差一定带东西给她，虽然不贵，但证明你时刻都在想着她。
26 她坐上车，一定先为她拉上安全带，再为自己拉。
27 当她想要松开的时候一定再坚持抱她一会。
28 永远不会丢下她一个人，就算你无理取闹也一定要让她安全。
29 你心情不好的时候能同她说说，如果你不想说，就让你抱一下。
30 刚上的饭菜一定装作抢着吃的样子，多为她夹些。
31 当她无助时你能陪她爬爬山，看看夕阳。
32 吵架后绝对不冷战，哄她之后告诉她你是为她好。
33 睡觉的时候喜欢她抱着你，但当她背过身去一定也转身然后再抱她。
34 在她做家务的时候为她拍照，告诉她穿围裙的样子也一样很美。
35 如果她生病了一定细心照顾她，因为这时候她最脆弱，为她熬大大大补汤。
36 钱包里一定有她的照片。
37 下班回来一定会大声的说：老婆，我回来了。
38 半夜故意把被子往自己这边拉，让她离自己近些。
39 听她嘱咐我按时吃饭，多喝水多吃水果，说她罗嗦然后吻她。
40 打雷的时候把她揽到怀里睡，然后说：我怕怕。
41 帮她擦她吃东西留在嘴边的奶油的和果酱。
42 留一点点的胡渣在亲她的时候扎扎她。
43 在她的朋友面前细心的照顾她，让他们知道她的选择是对的。
44 在你的朋友面前细心的照顾她，不让她觉得你冷落了她。
45 有生之年陪她去趟她喜欢的城市或国家。
46 当她发呆，做饭，拖地或趴在阳台的时候，你会在身后揽住她。

47 不许她说对不起。告诉她这是圣旨。但可以用老公真好这四个字来代替。
48 即使是冬天，她说口渴你也会一溜烟下床帮她倒水，但回来她必须帮你暖身子。
49 当她钱包里钱不多的时候，你会拿给她说：帮我买双袜子，不用找了。
50 让她爱上你爱的游戏，让她爱上你爱的球队。
51 一起养只宠物。
52 在她能看到的地方写篇文章。
53 带她去游乐园，电影院，图书馆，博物馆，漫画展和小酒吧。
54 有一首关于我们故事的歌。每次去KTV都要唱。
55 当她要和你商量事情或说不开心的事的时候，一定放下手中的东西认真听。
56 如果有天她要离开你，你会挽留，也会放她走。告诉她受委屈的时候来找你。
57 抱着一颗感激的心和她相处，当你想发脾气的时候，你要学会忍耐。
58 下雨的时候打一把伞，迈一样的步伐踩水花不让天气影响她的心情。
59 去餐厅点她喜欢的菜，如果实在点不出就点没吃过的，一起喊好吃或难吃。
60 在你朋友和父母面前会夸赞她。不管她是否在场。
61 当她不理你时，就模仿她的动作、她的声音、她的表情、她撒娇时说的话。
62 送她回家一定把她送到门口，告诉她明天会来接她。
63 绝不在她面前盯着别的女人看，看A片绝不被她逮到。
64 总能随时变出一块她喜欢吃的糖。

My life

Today morning i went and do my passport,because next week i am going to Singapore for attending my cousin sister wedding. I really like to go Singapore, because there really a wonderful place. Hope i can stay longer there but i dun think i can, because i still having class in here. Haiz... I hope when i go Singapore, my relatives they all can bring me to some places that i never been before. I will miss my dear dear for few day, because we can't meet,can't contact each other for 3-4 days. Hope he won't go and find other girls lo. Hehe... Hope i will have a happy journey in Singapore.